I quit

" I quit "
not a cigarrete nor alcohol, but hopes on you.
It's your birthday, i know i was harassing you allot in last few days, or might be its my assumptions because it was me who was fiddling around you, around your life in search of a new hope. You were all stable..enjoying your life and work as usual. So its not your fault.

Just to be around you or nearby you i made your life as mine and your friends as mine, so much so that they became really close to me gathering together some of the best memories of life. I forgot that they finally belong to you. I was not so sure of taking up this step of quitting but i had to seeing you walking so far that i was not even able to see your shadow around.

Your name, make something run down to my spine as if an electric shock, so you can imagine what kind of effect you have on me when i want to call it a quit. M just so not thinking straight and practical when i think about you because i fell in love with you. You took my heart amongst 1 billion population of India. You made me jealous when i was not bothered about anything in life.

It was your birthday and i decided that there can be nothing more than the gift of life where there is no presence of me in your life neither any of your friends life. I gave it a quit because you wanted it to call it a quit. "Happy Birthday".."Now??Its tomorrow.."..."I guess m not calling you tomorrow".."Why".."Because you deserve a life without me and not with me".."your wish"..."No...it was your wish".."Can i ask you something?"..."Yes".."Have you moved on??"..."Yes..almost"..."Happy Birthday"..."Thanks"..."Good Bye..Forever"..."Bye".

The last conversation and the last few words.

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A new feeling

I was stuck to it for months and years. But not now. I dont know what changed in me. I want to rejoice this moment of realization of being free and independent. I don't have the baggage of how the other person will think if i do something wiered. Its so freeking awesome to know that i have got back my wings and m upto fly. With no directions ahead but it has to be made.

I want to be just myself without pretending that m fine or happy. I will not be compromising any of my wishes just to make it special. I can walk and dance and live my life on my terms and conditions. There is no emotional trauma or baggage which m going to carry and just be as carefree as possible.

There is not going to be any lying to anybody about anything. No expectations and no restrictions. Do what so ever i ever want to do and roam with anybody as its not going to be anybody's business now. Look good to flaunt it and feel good about myself and not to impress anybody. No freaking compromises of sleeps for those stupid talks and have a fresh morning all together.

Focus more on present things then thinking of moments which are not going to be back together. I need to take care of myself to be independent and practical about the whole idea of life. M going to take decision for my life and nobody else. No bossing around and no domination. Have as many eye contacts as possible and look around for those eye candies and nobody will even stop you to do that.lol.

This is a new feeling which m enjoying it and wants to enjoy it as much as possible...!!

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An empty mind is a devils place.

Idleness means you have no particular goal in mind and thus you can be easily distracted. It happens with most of us that we suddenly start behaving so weird with a particular person or regarding a particular situation that we forget we were never like this.

We all have strange ideas and our brain is churning 24*7 non stop. Empty minds can generate thoughts on a particular incident occurred or intended to be occuring in the near future. Recently i was recalling few incidents and i came to realize that half of the decision we take in our lives is when our minds are empty.

Does it ever happened to you, that when you don't have anything to do, you start thinking about something so intensely that you are obsessed about it in no time and gradually starts dreaming about it. We conjure up all sorts of thoughts that can scare us or make us crazy. It sometimes irritates you and sometimes dreamy.

You end up hurting un-intentionally to alot many people thinking that its just a dream or a movie where everyhting at the end is going to be fine . But in todays movies sometimes there are no happy endings.

Similarly, in real life, if you fail to come out of this break of empty mind soon, then you are sure to miss alot of things and then later regret what you have missed in life. Take a break but not too long, work hard but make sure its smart, go on holiday to refresh and not to be alone in the corner of the world.

Life is beautiful. If you dont have friends no problemo, you have books to read, music to enjoy, places to explore, legs to walk and get tired at the end of the day to sleep peacefully. All you have to do is think creative ways to come out of it.

You are special. I'm special and nobody, even the empty mind of the other person have the right to hurt me.

I don't know, it made sense or not. But it surely did to me so sharing it.

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Stories Connected..

Story 1:

There was a small girl named raina. One day, she saw her mom cooking a nice pomfret for dinner. Raina went to the kitchen and told her that i want to learn how to make this. Her mom agrees to her and starts explaining the process, and in that process she tells her that the pomfret should be cut in 3 pieces. So immediately raina asked ma “But why it has to be in 3 pieces?". Mom replies "Because it has to be in 3". Raina again insisted on "Why". So raina's mother calls up her mother to ask "why is the pomfret cut in only 3 pieces and not more than that?" The grandmother replies “Because my mother taught me to cut in 3 pieces. And there was no specific reason for that.” Co-incidentally, raina's great grandmother was still alive, so her mother called her and asked "why was the pomfret cut in 3 pieces only?" she replied "because we had a small fry pan at that time, that is the reason we cut it into 3 pieces. But now when you have big fry pans you can cut into as many pieces as you want."

So guys did anybody got the conclusion of this overall story?

Conclusion: Reason is man's tool of understanding. Reason is the process of thinking. Reason requires clear, identifiable building blocks. It uses ideas, memories, emotions and sensory input. Today we get into anything aimlessly. We get started with any organization not knowing the steps and process of it, or either says any course which you know if completed it will give you name, fame, money. You know the end result but what about the steps, hard work, knowledge involved in it. People today opt for CS, CA, UPSC only because they see BIG money, do they know why they want to do CS or CA? Many of my friends do it. But when they complete the whole course they realize they were better for something else. We have so many options available, and we can make money out of anything. So many options have made the entire youngster’s life left in confused frame of mind. What to do exactly. And most of us go what either our parents say or do something what our friends are opting or if not either then see people who have made money out of anything and achieved success. But dude. Take a break, think what you want to do and why. Here "Why" is really important.

Story 2:

You take an orange and pierce it what will come out?
Answer: orange juice.

Take a mango and pierce it, what will come out?
Answer: Mango pulp.

Conclusion: Whatever is there inside comes out when it is pressurized. For example; a group of friends are enjoying their time in the evening, pulling each other’s leg. One of them in the group had a really bad day at work or he is going through some tension suppose, he is showing off that he is fine and normal, but one of your friend starts pulling his leg, the very moment he gets up and speaks up something which intoxicated the whole fun of the evening. It was not because he didn’t like it, but it was in where he wanted to take it out somewhere or other. In the corporate world when you are given a work you don’t like to do, even after putting in efforts, you were not able to be up to the mark, because it was of not of your interest. So, why to hide up those tension and frustration deep inside, when all you want to do is share and reduce the load of pressure.

Story 3:

Once SONIA GANDHI, L.K. Advani and Laloo Prasad Yadav were travelling in an autorickshaw. They met with an accident and all three of them died. Yama Raja was waiting for this moment at the doorstep of death. He asks Mrs. GANDHI and Advani to go to HEAVEN. But, for Laloo, Yama had already decided that he should be sent to HELL. Laloo is not at all happy with this decision. He asks Yama as to why this discrimination is being made. All the three of them had served the public. Similarly, all took bribes, all misused public positions, etc. Then why the differential treatment? He felt that there should be a formal test or an objective evaluation before a decision is made; and should not be just based on opinion or pre-conceived notions. Yama agrees to this and asks all the three of them to appear for an English test. Mrs GANDHI is asked to spell “INDIA” and she does it correctly. Advani is asked to spell " ENGLAND " and he too passes. It is Laloo's turn and he is asked to spell " CZECHOSLOVAKIA ".Laloo protests that he doesn't know English. He says this is not fair and that he was given a tough question and thus forced to fail with false intent. Yama then agrees to conduct a written test in Hindi (to give another chance assuming that Laloo should at least feel that Hindi would provide an equal platform for all three).Mrs GANDHI is asked to write "KUTTA BOLA BHOW BHOW". She writes it easily and passes. Advani is asked to write "BILLY BOLI MYAUN MYAUN". He too passes. Laloo is asked to write "BANDAR BOLA GURRRRRR....."Tough one. He fails again. Laloo is extremely unhappy. Having been a student of history (which the other two weren't),he now requested for all the 3 to be subjected to a test in history. Yama says OK but this would be the last chance and that he would not take any more tests. Mrs GANDHI is asked: "When did India get Independence?". She replied "1947" and passed. Advani is asked "How many people died during the independence struggle?”. He gets nervous. Yama asked him to choose from 3 options: 100,000 or 200,000or 300,000.Advani catches it and says 200,000 and passes. It’s Laloo's turn now. ‘Yama asks him to give the Name and Address of each of the 200,000 who died in the struggle. Laloo accepts defeat and agrees to go to HELL.

Moral of the story: IF YOUR MANAGEMENT HAS DECIDED TO SCREW YOU, THERE IS NO ESCAPE....!

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Why Bulls Hate the Color Red

Long ago, Bull did not hate the color red. And he was not angry the way he is today. In fact, he was as gentle as a cloud floating in the sky. But one day this all changed, and here is how it happened.

Back then, Bull loved to sleep even more than he loved to eat. And he did not like to be disturbed while he was sleeping. One morning, Cardinal flew down and landed on a huge rock. Cardinal didn’t realize that it was actually Bull, who was fast asleep. He flew up from behind and didn’t see Bull’s head or horns. Cardinal thought, “Maybe I’ll find some delicious seeds or grains to eat on top of this rock.” So he crawled up and began to peck at Bull.

Bull woke up. When he saw the little red bird, he was furious. Bull bellowed, “How dare you wake me up? I’ll teach you to peck at me!” Bull charged at Cardinal. The frightened, little bird flew away and never went near Bull again.

To this day, Bull still gets mad when he sees anything red. It reminds him of the time Cardinal woke him up. That’s why Bull charges whenever he sees a matador wave a red cape.

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Because i fell in love with you...

Have u ever loved sumone
But knew they didn't care?
Have u ever felt like crying
But Knew you'd get no where?

Have u ever looked into their eyes
And dint find ur image anywhere?
Have you ever looked into their hearts
And wished that you were there?

Have u ever felt their heartbeat,
When the lights were turned down low?
Have u ever whispered "I luv u"
But i can never let you know?

Love is grand, yet it hurts so much.
The price you pay is high.
If I could choose betwn Love n Death,
I'd rather choose to die.

So dnt fall in love, my frnd,
the pain is more than u think
it remains for life long,
But happiness goes away in a eye blink.

So dnt fall in love, my frnd,
You'll b hurt before it's through.
I know it hurts, my frnd
coz I fell in love with u.........

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Friends Forever

Friendship is a blessing, and a friend is the channel through whom great emotional, spiritual, and sometimes even physical blessings flow. Friends can cheer us when we’re sorrowful or depressed. Friends can challenge us when we allow ourselves to get beyond our reasonable boundaries. Friends can motivate us when we’re ready to give in, and they can provide for us when life falls apart. They are there when all is well, and we want someone with whom to share life’s pleasant and memorable moments. We often just want them around to have a good time, to laugh, to act silly, to enjoy some mutually liked activity. In how many ways have friends enriched our lives and made us feel loved, accepted, respected and cared for. Probably, too many to list, and the list grows daily.

Friends show us a different way of living in different situations and always want to see us happy without any expectations or any kind of sacrifice. Dare anyone raise their voice when you are with your friends and you are gone dude...Well i have my world around me with all kinds of friend and with whom i share a rappo on a different level. The best part is this is the first time all my friends are going to be together at one place. Everyone is close and special in their own unique way. Difficult whom to start with but this blog is dedicated to all my friends mentioned below :

Pooja Patil : A simple, down to earth person and my childhood friend since past 19 years. No matter what shit happens, we wont give up on each other. She describes us as
"Becoz d tym what we have spend together is unpredictable & unforgotable. Someone who makes you laugh until you can't stop. Someone who convinces you that there really is an unlocked door just
waiting for you to open it. Well in our good tyms & in our bad tyms frndz r d one who holds ur hand against d crowd to save u." Juice By That..!!!

Omkar duggal: Ok...!! Do i need to describe him?? Well.. A person who have seen the most pathetic and the most awesome face of mine. Walked through the thick and thins and yet enjoyed every moment. Enamored with him.

Brian D'souza : A friend who is and will always be remembered in the best chapter of my life.

Anjan Jagirdar : hehehe..A lazy ass....hahaha..The most irritating thing about him is, he just forgets that m a girl and he should behave when m around...hahaha..but that's OK.. he is just awesome in his own way. He can also be called as a sybarite as he id addicted to it.

Ekneet Kaur Saini: A person who have shown me the night life, the fun, the style, the attitude, the way to carry yourself. In all how to behave like a girl.We have taken all sorts of risk for each other. Trust me guys, we have actually had a candle light date on terrace and also on tankies sometimes. We have fought to be with each other and lied like anything just to meet each other.

Ruby Fernandes: A lady princess. Ahh.. I wish i was a guy..She is that one lady from whom you can learn alot of things. Discipline, love, motherhood and the most important thing "How to be a PERFECT housewife." If any of you get frustrated to go out for shopping with me..trut me you can never stand her.. She can bargain like anything. She knows very well how to save money.!!;)

Ali Sayyed : leeeeeee...!!! Mr.Ali Sufiyan Sayyed can abase you with words. You dare to debate with him and you are abdicated down by his most arbitered comments. He is a very jaunty personified guy and his jest can make you fall for him.

Hema Dube : The moment i listen to

Gotta get-get, gotta get-get
Gotta get-get, gotta g-g-g-get-get-get, get-get

Boom boom boom, gotta get-get
Boom boom boom, gotta get-get

I recall "The Hema Dance". Awesome dancer and the very outgoing person. Very practical and down to earth. I always tell her that "agar tu ladka hoti toh pakka ladkiyo ko barbad karke chodti"..hahaha. Always going through twist and turns and there should always be something new whenever we meet up.!!

Roshan Namboodri : Huge Muscular, fun loving and who simply hate girls crying. Awesome company to be with. A practical and also a sensitive man. A person who understand the unsaid words only because he have thought over it allot of time. Fan of Mallya's drink..and the one whom i can call up 11 in the night and cry or share anything.

Prasad Inmadar : A professional, socialized yet busy man. Wherever he is, he can make that place like his own. He can just gel around with anyone and everyone, who can just talk to you and make your mind go think "do i know him since so long?". He have the word power.

Pooja Yadav : My Hawwt Chocolava volacano. She is Hot, sexy, loves to dance and can just expect the unexpected from me..!! :) We were never "Good Friends" as such but it was just one incident and we were together since then. If i know few roads of Mumbai is all because of Pooja. M addicted to rikshaws than Buses and trains is all because of pooja. We fight and we abuse each other in love..heheh..we behave as if we dont know anything infront of guys. I can never forget my first drive to Marine lines and then the Sea link and then the movie and shopping etc etc..She just Lits up my world whenever she is around.

Divya Kalia : I call her "Jeneffer Lopez"..Oh yeaa she have a sexy mind blowing walk i have ever seen. A typical punjaban , with sweet smile and soft tone with a "Parandi" on the tip of her hair. My college friend since past 6 years now and still the moment we meet our talks have no end. I have shared a very precious bond with her and she will always be special. Just waiting for the Tickets to come up..!!;)

Nikhil Chellani : My "motu". Even if tomorrow he have his 6 pack Abs m still gonna call him motu.cos dats what he was when i met him for the first time. Never thought that an online fellow will be such a good and loving friend. The funniest part is, the moment i want to share anything and dont know what to do next, his call will be ringing on my cell to share his problem but i dont let him say anything and keep on sharing my part. But he is such a sweetheart that he will listen to everything very seriously and will hung up without sharing his part.

So that is my world around. Whats yours??

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